Rheumatoid Arthritis and Crohn's-like symptoms knocked me on my ass, doctor's and multiple trials of biologics and other assorted meds made me worse,I now fight my battle solo with whole, vegan, mostly raw foods...AND my disease is mostly in remission! I am mostly pain-free! I am LIVING again, not just breathing!
Tis the season to be thankful...and I've been thinking about gratitude...a lot.
Which has made me reminisce about my simpler life when I lived and taught yoga out of The Yellow House. Yes, it really was school bus yellow. I loved that house, loved my business, loved my students and they loved me...and because of all that LOVE I was so full of gratitude. I used to walk a circle around my house every morning and every evening in meditation and prayer, but it wasn't just prayer...it was daily thanksgiving.
I once taught my students to live in a place of love and gratitude.
I was once a light in this world...and illness sucked that light out of me.
I realized yesterday when I saw a trailer for an upcoming documentary May I Be Frank that gratitude has been lacking here of late. It's not because I'm less grateful. It's because in my illness I've become apathetic. So when I really looked at my situation I realized the only way I am going to turn my life completely around is to find my GRATITUDE again and embrace it.
I have a lot of inner work to do now that body is feeling better...
I see a lot of positive affirmations, prayer, and meditation in my future to find the woman stolen from me by disease.
Anyway, all this thinking made me wish for a trip to California so I could visit Cafe Gratitude in person...barring winning the lottery anytime soon, that isn't happening. So I went off in search of a recipe book by the founders of the restaurant.
And I found it! Woot!!
I can't wait for it to arrive in the mail:)
In the meantime, I'm lighting incense and more candles...and walking a circle around my new house twice a day to speak my gratitude out loud to the divine...
Here's the book:
I also found a Cafe Gratitude youtube video by my favorite raw foodie couple, Matthew and Angela Stokes:
And a recipe for DEVOTED that decadent coconut cream pie ... since coconut cream pie is my absolute fav pie in the world I may have to give my fat gram counting the day off next Wednesday, because I am having a very special friend over, one of my former yoga and reiki students (who is now a reiki master in her own right) and it will be the first time we share a raw meal together so I want it to be super amazing! This pie looks like it might make that happen...